Life can feel hard! Yesterday was hard...today will be hard, and most likely so will many tomorrows. To be fair, God did tell us it would be. Isn't it good to know we have hope for a greater tomorrow and a peace that can be ours today?
Ever feel like a mere robot? As if you are functioning through your days on a program?
I have.
Day by day doing just enough to get by, following the unspoken rules, trying to meet other's expectations, getting done what must, skipping meals (or eating all the cookies) then do it all again day after day.
No real passion, no hope for change, no real connection.
My soul was numb for years.
Did it mean I had lost love for my God, others, coffee or chocolate? No. I just felt numb, and sometimes, invisible.
Am I the only one? You neither love your life or hate it, you neither feel loved or loving. You are pretty sure you were meant for something more, but what? How can you keep it all together even though everything is falling apart inside you?!
Who grows up as a little girl thinking one day I hope my life feels monotonous, robotic and numb?! I missed a mind that dreamed, innocent, trusting faith when steps were quicker, paths straighter, clinched jaws and fists relaxed, betrayal was quickly forgiven, the anxious mind was calmed, a place where all anticipation conquered all exhaustion.
Where was my hope? Where was my anticipation for glory...
It's amazing how numb we become when we don't feel valued or seen. I believe God created us to live a life of Anticipating Love.
When our heart becomes numb, we cannot rejoice, for we have no hope for healing or restoration. How do we start to feel again?
If you find yourself feeling numb, here are some ideas to help you ignite your heart again and live in a space of grace…
- Take a break every day to do something for you. You spend all day serving others, don't forget to serve YOU! It can be as simple as going for a walk.
- Bless someone without it being part of your ministry/responsibility.
- Read The Word daily with anticipation to fall in love with Him deeper.
- Worship, with trust and surrender, listening and receiving.
- Speak against the lies of the enemy by speaking truth.
- Get back in touch with your hobbies and interests. You may not be able to actually reengage with it because of life, but find ways you can escape to it to some degree.
- Focus on body-mind-spirit. Strengthen your weaknesses in these areas. He is showing you these numb places so He can breathe life back into them.
- Get accountability and practice receiving again.
Friend, It's time to ANTICIPATE UNCONDITIONAL LOVE.
Understand better Who's you are. Live in gratitude. Worship. When you realize how loved you truly are, how seen and heard you are, how cherished and purposed you are...His breath will become yours and you will no longer feel numb. It won’t be overnight but it starts today if you choose it.
Grab a trusted Sister Friend and start today moving fresh anticipation into your heart!
"And above all these put on love, which binds everything together in perfect harmony.
And let the peace of Christ rule in your hearts, to which indeed you were called in one body. And be thankful.
Let the word of Christ dwell in you richly, teaching and admonishing one another in all wisdom, singing psalms and hymns and spiritual songs, with thankfulness in your hearts to God.
And whatever you do, in word or deed, do everything in the name of the Lord Jesus, giving thanks to God the Father through him."
Colossians 3:14-17
