Being Weak

" Likewise the Spirit helps us in our weakness. For we do not know what to pray for as we ought, but the Spirit himself intercedes for us with groanings too deep for words."    Romans 8:26

 

 

I recently broke my elbow which has slooooowed... me... waaaaay... down... physically, and even emotionally. I am pretty strong-willed, and what Mom can ever fully rest who has little ones, so I have continued on getting done what I can. My husband and kids have really jumped in to fill in gaps that I leave. Everything takes 3 times as long to do (as I am even typing one handed as we speak!!), so I do hit "walls" throughout the day- physical ones and emotional ones. Part of the frustration emotionally is needing to rely on others for help. I am trying so hard, and what used to be easy for me now takes a lot more out of me...draining me.

 

When I fell on my arm Sunday, I smashed my IPhone. It actually softened the blow of my face when it hit the ground otherwise my cheek would have smashed the jagged concrete and probably caused worse damage. Amazingly it still works!! But I need to get over to the Apple store, about 45 min drive away, to have it repaired. So, I asked a friend of mine if she could drive me there. My husband voiced an interest in going to the store with me, and I won't pass up any opportunity for him to go to the store with me cuz he hardly ever ever goes with me or the kids. So, my text to my friend simply said, "My husband wants to do the apple with me. Have a great day!" You can imagine reading that first thing in the morning, still waking up...He wants to do what?!? Toooo funny!!

What a GREAT relief to know with God, we don't have to explain ourselves, reason, justify, be politically correct, walk on eggshells, figure out what we mean to say, put words to how we feel or watch our every move. He KNOWS your heart, your thoughts and your fears!! When we don't know what to say, the Lord intercedes. When the ache inside our heart throbs, He feels every beat of it with you. He knows the cries of your heart. When we do not understand, we can rest in His care. When there are just no words, He speaks for you.

This is true whether in times of great turmoil or times of worship. Have you ever stood before your Father, Redeemer, Healer, Refuge and been speechless in complete awe? Those are beautiful moments!!! Oh Glorious Precious God!! WOW...what extremes our hearts can reach and yet, " the Spirit helps us in our weakness. For we do not know what to pray for as we ought, but the Spirit himself intercedes for us with groanings too deep for words."

 

Father, Son and Holy Spirit, thank You for how You care for me. It is equally frightening and yet comforting to know that You can see the words my heart and mind speaks. You see me for me and yet You also see who You have created me to be. You see my intentions and motives. You hear the smallest whispers of worry in days of trials and You can comprehend shouts of praise in my spirit and heart overflowing with awe. You count every tear of pain and joy. There is nothing that escapes You. Thank You for knowing me so intimately. Please draw me closer to You so I may know you better and hear what You are saying to me. Be my words when I don't know what to say. Lead me off the path of destruction onto the path of righteousness. 

Hear me Lord today. Give me rest in my weakness, that my heart, my mind and my spirit will draw strength in You. I praise Your Holy, Ever-present, Name, my Friend, Father, my Lord, amen.